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Day 8 - Motivation

Ok. The cravings (for the most part) are gone.  Not likely forever, but I'm starting to adapt to the 'new normal.'  It was a tough weekend.  Getting through it unscathed took a combination of trusting the system, finding appropriate substitutions and focusing on why I'm trying to lose the weight.

Losing weight is hard.  I may have mentioned that.  Losing it for the wrong reason is impossible.  If you're not motivated to stay with it, you're going to fail.  Finding the 'right' reason, I think, is key, and it's going to be different for everybody.  For me, it's a combination of a few things.  The first of these is health.  I've been dealing with low testosterone my whole adult life.  It may be one of the reasons I'm packing the weight, and can make it more difficult for me to lose weight (establishing those excuses already).  When my weight is down, though, it self-corrects itself a little.  If I can get my weight down to a manageable level we're hoping that it could fix it.  But like I said, I've been dealing with this for over ten years, why now?

Another cause of low testosterone is a pituitary adenoma (benign brain tumor).  I recently had an MRI that ruled that out.  Being told you possibly have a brain tumor puts things in to a bit of perspective, as does being shoved into an MRI for 30 minutes.  My perspective of my health changed a bit.  I just felt it was time to get healthy.  

Another motivation is family.  My wife and I have been trying for kids for over ten years without success.  As long as we still hold out hope that we will be able to, I'm unable to take testosterone treatment as it completely kills a dude's... ammo.  I know first hand as I took testosterone for almost a year after I was initially diagnosed. 'Roid rage is real.  We've seen a few specialists about fertility, and while nobody has told me that my weight or low testosterone are an issue (lab work they're generally more concerned with have supposedly been sufficient, I'll let you use your imagination) but it can't hurt.  

Finally, I'm stubborn and proud.  It's something I've set my mind to, and I'm looking forward to being able to tell people that "Yup, I did that."  

Any way, 1 week done. 


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