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Day 37 - Weigh-in Wednesday

Mixed bag this week. Had my appointment last week with the endocrinologist. Did I say I was meeting with an endocrinologist? I had an appointment last week with an endocrinologist. Weighed in at 338, w, Jean's a hoodie and shoes. Not heavy shoes, but.. be cool. So for 1 month a loss of 12 lbs. Yes yes yes most of that is water weight. Still it made me feel good. That being said, bit of a tough week for my diet. I didn't cheat badly any single day but can't say I made it through any one day unphased.  And to make it worse I'm off the next four days with a metric ton of halloween candy left over. Is trick or treating a dying tradition? We just don't get many kids any more.Anyway, the doctor scale wasn't that far off from My Fitbit Aria scale. So I'll be using that to report my weight from now on. It tends to report a little low, but that's not the worst thing for the ego.  In the meantime, I'm still feeling great. Shirts are loose. Pants are loose and…

Day 30 - Weigh-in Wednesday

"Wow, Chris, you've really abandoned this blog." - You.

That's fair.  I started with great gusto, telling you all about all that weight I was going to lose.  Then the last couple weeks I've been losing steam. Last week I posted like.. 12 words.  Sorry.  I guess you'll have to keep me accountable for the blog as well as the weight loss.

Anyways, Day 30. We're basically a month in.  At day 1, I envisioned his post going like this: "Hey, I worked hard this month, followed my diet and I've lost 15 pounds! Hooray for hard work! Losing weight is Easy when you make a plan and stick to it!" Ah, such innocence. How arrogant I was back then.  The bathroom scale with not-great-consistently reports higher number than when I started.

Of course, I don't really know how much weight I've lost. I didn't anticipate the trouble with the scale.  I get on it and stand as still as I can and it hovers between 320 and 355 before finally giving up and di…

Day 23 - Weigh-in Wednesday

"You're building muscle."  
That's the helpful advice you get when you're exercising trying to lose weight but not seeing any real results.  Needless to say, the scale is still not cooperating.  This is frustrating, to say the least.  When you don't see the results you think you should it's extremely easy to give up...  cheat days become easier - "It doesn't make any difference."  To combat this I've been increasing my exercise.. from 30-45 minutes to 45-60.  Hopefully by next week I've got actual results to share, and not just more muscle.

Day 18 - Misc

You may have noticed no weigh-in on Wednesday.  Mostly this was because there wasn't much to say. Scales suck.  I get on and it can't decide if I weigh 311 or 340, making it hard to figure out, from a strictly weight standpoint, how I'm doing.  May need to include a fourth scale into the mix. 

Intangibles are good though. Wore jeans today that I haven't worn for over 6 months.  Face is looking slimmer.

First real cheat tonight, I'm afraid. Mexican restaurant. I avoided the free chips and salsa. I ordered a grilled chicken meal and not the burrito stuffed with french fries I wanted, didn't even eat the Spanish rice on the side... but I did have a corn tortilla.  Glad I got that off my chest. Anyway, another short post, sorry.

Day 14 - Past Success

You may be thinking that for someone fat I'm speaking with a great deal of authority about weight loss.  This is true.  That's why this blog is about weight loss, and not weight maintenance.  I do have some experience losing weight.  In July of 2015 my sister asked me if I could be an usher at her wedding and said the five most hated words for fat dudes every where: "Just use your own suit." 

So a little context, here.  Pretty much every guy has a suit.  For funerals, weddings, interviews, etc.  They're expensive, and unless you have to wear one for work your probably don't have more than one.  Except fat guys.  Fat guys don't have suits, they have fabric reminders of the last time that suit fit. And because most of us don't have a lot of opportunity to wear a suit, we have to rent or buy a new one every time we need one, because we've put on a few pounds since the last time we wore one.

Anyway.  I needed a suit for my sisters wedding.  I didn'…

Day 10 - Weigh in Wednesday

Quick update tonight. And not because I almost forgot.  338 on the scale this morning. So 12 lbs. Yes, 12 lbs of water weight... but still. Only the hard 88 to go. Still though. 10 days, no cheating and already noticing clothes fitting a bit looser. Tomorrow, there will be a small cheat. They're providing food at work so I'll be having a whole wheat bagel. So I'm having a carb 3 days early. I would be turning it down but they often bribe us with food and they've been making a contentious attempt to have healthier options, and I feel I need to encourage this behavior, especially because I feel I'm partly the reason they're making that attempt... so yeah. Social pressure is already trying to make me fail... On the bright side I don't care for some wheat bagels so likely not habit forming.

Day 8 - Motivation

Ok. The cravings (for the most part) are gone.  Not likely forever, but I'm starting to adapt to the 'new normal.'  It was a tough weekend.  Getting through it unscathed took a combination of trusting the system, finding appropriate substitutions and focusing on why I'm trying to lose the weight.
Losing weight is hard.  I may have mentioned that.  Losing it for the wrong reason is impossible.  If you're not motivated to stay with it, you're going to fail.  Finding the 'right' reason, I think, is key, and it's going to be different for everybody.  For me, it's a combination of a few things.  The first of these is health.  I've been dealing with low testosterone my whole adult life.  It may be one of the reasons I'm packing the weight, and can make it more difficult for me to lose weight (establishing those excuses already).  When my weight is down, though, it self-corrects itself a little.  If I can get my weight down to a manageable leve…

Day 5 - Cravings

I had planned to post tonight on my motivation for losing weight.  That was before yesterday, when the worst part of the diet hit: cravings.

If you're not fat or have never tried to lose weight, you might think that people fail to diet because they get hungry.  That may be partially true, but in my experience, hunger can be fairly easily overcome by drinking a lot of water and eating smaller snacks throughout the day.  It's the cravings that get you.  Right now I'm craving an All-Word Double Cheeseburger from Village Inn with all you can eat Fries from Red Robin.  Followed by a brownie... from anywhere. You can't go wrong with a brownie.   Also a whole pizza, fried chicken, mashed potatoes, macaroni and cheese, a milk shake and another brownie.  And that doesn't even begin to touch fast food. I'm craving all of that too.

I know from experience the cravings will go away; South Beach is designed to completely remove you from those foods for two weeks so you can g…

Day 3 - Weigh-in Wednesday

A funny thing happened when I got on the scale - it said 335. Remember, I weighed in at the Doctor's office less than a week ago at 350. So one of four things happened: 1: I lost 15 lbs in a week. Possible I suppose but not terribly likely. I mean even if that was mostly water weight this is going to be a very short blog. Either because I have colon cancer or because I'm gonna hit my goal pretty quickly. 2. My clothes last week weighed 15 pounds less than my skivvies. More possible, but... camo shorts and .y favorite wal-drug tshirt. People just don't dress up to go to the doctor any more.  3: my scale is off.  The most likely option. 4: partial amputation of arm. I mean in reality it's probably a combination of 1-3 but it presents an interesting issue for the purposes if this blog... what do I use for my starting weight?  350 is just such a convenient number... I"ll sleep on it and let you know.

Day 1 - Method

Losing weight is hard. I mean, on paper it's pretty straight forward: you just have to burn more calories than you consume; but in real life you are constantly battling an internal struggle with yourself and your body's desire to maintain the status quo. Your closest friends will simultaneously tell you how good you're looking while offering you a piece of their delicious Oreo-lard cheese cake and make it clear they'll be offended if you don't at least have a 'small piece.' Your schedule: eating healthy takes planning and foresight whereas the dollar menu is just so convenient. In order to combat this you have to have two things: the willpower to repeatedly and consistently tell people no (including yourself and the girl scouts) and a clearly defined plan.

As I mentioned in my last post, I recently met with a weight loss specialist to discuss my weight loss and to create a plan. This discussion did discuss weight loss medications and bariatric surgery …

Here I Go Again On My Own

Hey. If you're a fan of deductive reasoning, you've reviewed the URL and title of this blog (maybe a picture) and concluded that I'm fat. And you're not wrong. at 6'3" 350 pounds, I have a BMI of 43.7, which doctor-types will firmly rate as 'obese.' Those words are hard to type, but as they say, the first step is admitting you have a problem. Sigh. I have a problem. I won't unload my whole story on you here, I'll get to that. If I manage to keep up on this blog than you'll get to know me pretty well, although conversely I do plan to keep this as anonymous as possible. Bullies and whatnot. I did meet with an actual weight-loss specialist this last week and one of the things we discussed is that people who attend 'group' sessions are quite a bit more successful with their weight loss. Unfortunately, as a 30-something dude it can be difficult to find an appropriate peer group, and frankly they're expensive. The purpose of thi…